A blood soaked Arthur IS RISING

Gonzo journalism and fiction is a tricky mix.... Welcome to my razor's edge.


I am an elf in the attic making mind toys with sharp edges; an educated writer who gets good reviews, who you can read for free in the rough form of first drafts on the web, or purchase in a book form.
The best soldier does not attack. The superior fighter succeeds without violence. The greatest conqueror wins without struggle. The most successful manager leads without dictating. This is intelligent non aggressiveness. This is called the mastery of men.


Welcome to you, I am John Scott Ridgway, Novelist, Poet, Blogger, Radio and TV writer and actor... five books, also paint in oils and acrylics. I am poet warrior of sorts, a non violent radical, personally, though understanding of those who choose other paths IN THE EIGHTY PLUS COUNTRIES AT LAST COUNT THAT came in this blog ...

The predicted revolutions in the USA and around the would are going to

be violent in the next twenty years, is what the CIA says. I want them to stay peaceful, which is the only way to win this struggle between haves and have nots. They have more guns, we have more people,, and they include the mothers and sisters and brothers of the people they will ask to fight us.... I think they underestimate the police.

NEVER ACCEPT APPEASEMENT OVER JUSTICE. By any means necessary is the reality. . . the USA can be spared stupid wars, but other countries. . . need different solutions. . .

The number of Countries that have come in to have a look at this blog humbles me. Thank you very much.



PROFESSIONALS, HOPEFULLY, like the police, military, etc...

understanding that violence is sometimes needed

does not mean I like anything about the sound

of fists hitting faces

Boxing is too much for me

make me feel like I am watching

dog fights with toothless pitbulls

"I am an artist first, and a politician second," as John Lennon said.

My intentions are to stop the violence from entering into

revolutionary wars

the CIA


will break out in the next twenty years all over the

world, including here...

But Ill tell ya,

if there is not some redistribution of

wealth here there and everywhere




My intentions is to keep these protests peaceful

so we can win

without bloodshed

Total War for Total Peace

Never incites violence

or destroys property

you should be able

to go to protests with strollers and babies

parents feeling as safe as the police

Now, poetry...

I am too far out into the battlefield to retreat. This CHARGE is win or die...


A blood soaked Arthur has risen

be aware

be very aware

total war
for total peace
is being fought

THERE will be many ways to die
and only one to live
give and give and give
until the worlds downtrodden and oppressed
can begin to forgive
before things get bloody and ruthless
My Peace sign shot full of holes
and my reason ignored
drowned out by the roar of machine guns

You cannot break the golden rule
all the time and not expect
consequences from nature

we will fight for our right to thrive as well
we do not accept your sentence
to poverty so you can earn more
by shipping the factory off to China

nothing this mindgame in america can do to us
can destroy this thing inside that yearns for freedom
enough to die in the name of JUSTICE
generation after generation
from time

No more hyper-reality FOR US. We have already spent too long in an oasis of belief where nothing is wrong, folks... Now, we must face this was all a mirage... and try like hell to get out of this desert... or resolve ourself to the fact that we will leave our children to starve in the barren sands.

There are better ways to defeat an enemy than an outright fight, especially if you are vastly outnumbered, like the Elite. MSM PSY-WAR allows them to control our actions through our thoughts, and basically stop our FORCE from activating. I am not saying we should fight just because we can win, I am just saying we should fight before we lose, if no other option is left us.... because a world is at stake.

  • You are a spark in dry timber, stopped from becoming a roaring flame
    They SET UP LAWS THAT ALLOW THEM TO STEAL. MURDER. BRAINWASH THEIR CRITICS. We must begin to feel challenged now to stop them. Or WE WILL LOSE EVERYTHING. PERIOD. THE SKY, OTHER SPECIES, OUR WATER... OUR MINDS. No more hyper-reality for us... too long in that oasis where nothing is wrong folks... we must face this is all a mirage.
    • OUR LACK OF RESOLVE TO CHANGE OUR WORLD MUST PUZZLE THE GODS THEMSELVES.... how can we be this collectively dum? And if we are....then the brains will be looked to as potential saviors.... when all too often they are just psocyo-paths and stooges and scared folks under the gun who are ALLOWED to CON EVERYONE... FOR THE GOOD OF A

A cruel slap woke me to the PAIN
at the moment of birth;
My first cry was NO
buried in unintelligible screams.
I am a man now.
Now I catch your hand and break all the fingers.

the promise

You must be whoever the enemy fears the least
or fears the most.

No other position is saf

da general

Welcome to the spark that inflames TOTAL WAR FOR TOTAL PEACE.

I am too far out into the battlefield to retreat. This CHARGE is win or die...

THE ELVES ATTIC is stories, poetry, essay's, peculiar events in my life . . . oil painting, articles.

Your patience for bearing with me on my first drafts is a much appreciated kindness. Your worldwide interest is my muse . . .Lately I have been writing a book called Gangsta General x, about a revolutionary in the USA, who is fighting to keep the revolt peaceful as things spin out of control in the states after a famine gets the populace hungry enough to change their society once and for all....

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Thank you.


the political issues of the internet generation are getting slammed by the conservative idiots

First comes the cliche' that people who write for the net live in their parent's basement, then that they are single, porn addicted, pimply, pale and fat ( I did it too when I first wrote on the net, about blog-flamers, those people who think being mean on the nett is going to help the world... folks like me, occasionally, though you have to be just as generous with your praise, or your opinion is nulled).  Now a recent study showed that the internet writers primary political interests are getting Scientology's tax exempt status repealed and getting pot legalized.  The guy I saw point this out, a be-suited Republican Knighted by the Corporate Kings pretending to represent the people for the press, sneered the big sneer.  I saw him as one of the dinosaurs who just do not even try to get it.  Like the print journalists who pretend the only way to transfer information is through dead trees;  they seem to think any citizen journalism is tainted, though any fool can see a lot of what goes on the internet is trying to fill in gaps that they themselves have left --  we have had news outlets controlled by corporate interests that first and foremost protected the status quo, and now they do not even pretend to be unbiased...  they had to come out of the closet because the 'citizen' journalists pointed out their bias.

One of the greatest examples of citizen journalists are the staff of John Stewart and Steven Colbert's shows;  Stewart is now polled to be the most trusted journalist in America...  see why I asked him to help with my campaign before anyone else?  This was back in 2007, when he was still considered more a comedian than a social phenomena awakening a generation to the leftest opinion so long ignored by the traditional press.  He can make and break people NOW.  The 'Colbert' bump' gives writers and songsters, etc... who go on his show huge sales in the weeks following, and some get instantly famous.  They are both part of a media shift toward Total War For Total Peace -- the attempt of EVERYONE to begin to make demands on our political  system, no matter who they are, or how powerless they have been convinced that they are.

I was convinced I would never have any influence on Politics, grew cynical, until the Obama campaign and i found myself watching a video message barack obama had sent to me, directly, saying he wanted to meet me.  Same with Hillary.  Didn't happen due to my conviction, at the time, that I was going to limit anyone's ability to think for themselves... I was freaked out by all the people who were taking my words as gospel at the time...  I mean, by then, guns had went off around the country because of my call to prepare for a revolt...  I was writing about IF the republicans tried to steal another election.  I meant it.  I was like, get yourselves fucking ready.  Then they came after me, baited me, kept me in terrible pain, awake for days, etc...  and I told those who were following my words to just fucking go ahead and attack.  By then I wanted out of their world altogether.  Anyone who wonders what I mean by getting attacked by the government, refer to other entries because I am sick of writing about it after two years of putting together a book about it together, which they sent someone to tell me not to write, which of course firmed up my resolve to tell fucking everything.  This is fucking war and they drew first blood.  Left me here bleeding in my cell.  I try to forget the pain of this shit and forgive, but my thirst for justice wants that Nietzscheian need for vengeance!!  Maybe when I see  they have paid their penance?  I doubt it.

Now, back to those internet interests.  They took this information from what people were writing politicians about.  Now, what does this mean?   Does it mean this is peoples only concern, like the conservative politician pointed out?   Hell no.  These are just two topics where popular opinion and voting can make a difference.  We know that people want the environment kept clean and the concerns of animals taken into serious consideration, we have passed thousands of laws tinkering with this stuff, right?  What can the average Joe do?  Pot and Scientology, citizens are making significant progress in both of these areas, because we on the internet have demanded as much, especially as we learned the amount of people who smoke...  and societies old hippies, who know the mild nature of the weed and how much  better it is on the body and life over drinking, are taking control of the world.

I know the other issues are all out there.  I see them all over the web.  God bless the day that environmental alerts cause everyone across the land to take action in unison and force political reactions.   It is here now, but not enough people are using the net this way yet... they will.   Country wide revolts could be called almost instantly.  Sit downs.  Work stoppages.  Etc.   There are enough leftists in this country to stop it from moving...   And I am talking about Gandhi tactics here.  So peaceful that the cops are bored or interested in your issues.  My dream is that the local authorities morph into armed guards for the revolt.  Revolt.  What a loaded word.  I mean more a tinkering, forcing the wheel of justice to move a little bit at a time, incrementally enough to keep the peace, but quick enough to put out the fires.  Like when Unions band together to make their point.

Pot and a cult.  The first achievement of the left in years.  Well, this dude who sneered at these issues obviously has never had to live in fear of a narc showing up at his door the one time in his life he bought a quarter pound/me -- some alarm went off in my head, though I had hung with this guy many times...  a burst of psychic knowledge, though looking back I can see the signs of a narc all over him  -- he told us he was going to some trucker school, lived in this little hotel, and showed me some bogus identification card with his name saying who he was, which was something put out by a radio station showing he was a fan...  all ridiculous...  but he did bust a friend of mine I introduced him to, who he bought a joint from... he did smoke up with us, though..  just never those joints he bought, which he kept back and we thought he was bogging, but no... gathering evidence to fuck up the lives of people over next to nothing.

Anyone who thinks Scientology is a non-concern is dense to say the least.  Politicians who support and help cults are everywhere  -- the esteemed Harvey Milk is even slammed by the Jonestown critics, who talk about his support for the Kool Aide Killer himself, Jim Jones.  Our freedom of religion laws are abused all the time by these cults, used to brain wash people into cheap labor for predatory sales organizations.  There should be a law -- read the survivor stories, or the article I just posted, and weep that the politicians have failed us.

So there, to the Headintheassica suffering bitch who came out against the internet generation as frivolous.   What is really frivolous is this fuck, who allows these travesties to go on without a fight.

Writing about the internet mindsets I see out there reminds me of how weird the comments sections are just about everywhere on the web.  You see people trying to verbally joust, make clever quips, threaten, bully and cajole.  The darkest myths of ourselves as superheroes and shit come out on the web.  We can use words to basically PICK A FIGHT, as we set on our ass far from ever having to face the subject of our criticism.  Writing on the web is a little better than muttering back at the politics you happen to despise or love on the tv, but the content is NO better, most of the time.   Still...  I am amazed by the depth of even that emotion.  People are charged up.  And though these things are easier and more legal to write about than do, I read calls for blood and some right wing revolution that these crazies think is coming.  I personally, as I have written before, my hope that these racist rednecks come to the Southside and all get gunned down by the gangs and anyone else with a gun.  I would love it.  We way out number them.  They talk a big story because of their love of war, then underestimate the fury that they have stirred up...  is the same one in their chest.  Humans are humans.  For some things they will kill and imprison people.  Get the FBI to stop the right by just rounding them up and figuring out who is involved with a little waterboarding -- they could use those secret prisons that ICE sets up for the immigrants.

Oh, well... I love writing this kind of shit to stir up the right wing fucks who monitor my work for trends among those who are 'too left.'

Speaking of left...  I have reading more Ayn Rand crap lately.  I particularly hate this shit since I am disabled. This would leave me starving by the side of the road in an Ayn Rand novel.  Useless.  Yet most people would say that with the books, paintings, blog and radio show, that I was indeed living a productive life.  Ayn Rand tells a myth about how most people are lazy fucks who need to be enslaved, or they will de-evolve.  She believed that only a few good men, the work-a-holics, had any worth in the world.  The Producers she called them.  I read all the time from right wingers about how they want to get rid of the Non Producers.  With unemployment at all time highs, this would be a lot of folk right now.  I actually read a comment from one guy saying they should kill all the Non Producers and the liberals (yes, he actually used the Rand Reference).

An easy solution to pretend is real for simple, selfish minds that have no idea about how to actually relate to other peoples lives.  Everyones lives are important to them, even if they are not to Rand, or the Right Wing who advocate stupid shit like killing the non-producers.  Little different than Hitler's Jewish Problem.  Except this time the elite who get to live are the ones who have the best jobs.   Everyone else, including those stupid artists and the elderly, disabled, out of work, would be gassed or whatever -- knowing these guys burying us alive is an option.

THE MEEK SHALL INHERIT THE EARTH.  This means that they are the ones who are left alive after the warriors have battled things out -- the peace makers come along afterwards, take over in the end of every war ever fought.  Also means that by keeping our protests non-violent, we gain the respect of the system, and the media, rather than being able to be easily demonized by everyone from the cops accompanying the march to the folks at home who know nothing is achieved by bashing the windows out of cars --  the old tactics of getting press coverage could easily be replaced by citizen journalists covering peaceful marches for the web;  we can stream this shit live, talk to people, get a lot more in depth than the 30 seconds they show on the nightly news, or the eight paragraphs in an article.

The 2010 elections would be a good place to show the internet/media influence.  If the Democrats could get more of a majority, these evil little politicians would be less able to play cut--throat with the bill to get the best deal, like they do with health care.  Leaving Lieberman as the swing vote is the worst position we could be in.  Dude is evil.


Scientology's Paramilitary "Sea Org" is Looking for Suckers
by Lilly von Marcab
Wednesday Dec 30th, 2009 11:26 AM
The Scientology cult's "Sea Organization" is spreading the word through glossy ads that they need more gullible people to sign billion-year contracts and live like slaves. However, they will sometimes be allowed to wear a fancy uniform.

A recently-leaked 2009 issue of "International Scientology News" features a large advertisement recruiting for Scientology's paramilitary organization and pretend-Navy, the Sea Organization. To anyone who didn't know better (which apparently includes the 50,000 remaining Scientologists worldwide), to join the "Sea Org" is as honorable an endeavor as such legitimate public service as joining the military forces of one's own country. Those fancy uniforms must mean that the Sea Org is very important, right? Unfortunately for Scientology, being in the Sea Org is about as useless a thing as anyone can do. Moreover, it is really an intensification of Scientology brainwashing and in many ways is even a kind of slavery.
Would you be interested in working for an organization for which the following statements are true?
  • Employees are housed in compounds, behind fences with locked gates and mounted security cameras.
  • Employees are bused between the workplace and their locked housing compound, which is too far away to walk or bike (and which isn’t allowed anyway).
  • Employees may not leave the housing compound without permission.
  • Employees are forbidden to own or use cell phones and have no access to public telephones. If they make a call on company phones, they must first obtain permission, schedule it, and the call is always monitored.
  • Foreign employees have their passports confiscated and locked in a company safe. US citizens who have passports also have their passports confiscated and locked in the safe.
  • Most employees routinely have expired drivers licenses as their only form of identification (if they have even that).
  • Employees are often transferred from business entity to business entity within the organization, and very seldom with any traditional administrative/personnel paperwork being done with the new entity (I-9, W-4, applications, transfer papers, etc.).
  • There is a whole department dedicated to the obtaining of visas for foreign nationals, and a basic procedure to lie about the reason for a visa, which is contrary to the actual use of the visa.
  • Foreign personnel who are “out of status” (visa expired) are sometimes transferred to other locations and their names changed
  • Employees’ normal work hours are from 8 am to 11 pm daily, seven days a week, and they are routinely kept working until 2 am or 3 am. Many times they are kept working throughout the night with no chance of being bused back to their housing compound.
  • Employees are not fed sufficiently, either because they are forbidden a meal break, given only a few minutes to eat, or the food provided is inadequate. Long term employees are often underweight.
  • The employees are paid less than minimum wage. (At most, $50/week. Some employees are not paid at all.)
  • The employees are given little to no medical or dental care — and only in emergency situations, if then. Many employees have rotting teeth and haven’t seen a dentist in years. Medical problems are often neglected or the person forbidden from seeking medical help outside the employer (who does not provide a doctor or nurse on site).
  • The employees are not covered by any form of social welfare or retirement benefits and often the employer has not registered the person’s meager wages with social security.
  • The employer threatens the employee with enormous debts should they consider leaving; and has routinely billed and collected from those who have left.
  • The employer threatens the employee with throwing out the person who will then be indigent. Most employees have no money, no assets and long since lost contact with their families. They fear being indigent.
  • The employees routinely do not have any form of bank account for their assets, and most have no assets because they are paid insufficiently to require a bank account. The employees are usually paid in cash.
  • The employer opens all employee personal mail and reads it and censors it — passing on only those bits the employer deems okay.
  • The employees are not free to roam independently around the local area unsupervised and unaccompanied. When allowed to roam accompanied and supervised, they are told where they can and cannot go. The local area they are allowed to roam in is covered by employer’s security cameras.
  • The employees are forbidden to tell others about their living and working conditions. The employees are taught to be fearful of those outside this employment and have been taught that law enforcement and social services are enemies. They are taught and practiced in how to lie about their conditions.
  • At employer’s work location, there are none of the usual Labor Law posters available for viewing of the employees. Employees are unable to learn of their worker rights by normal means.
  • Employees are forbidden to watch, and are denied access to, televisions and newspapers. They have little to no access to information about the world outside their work and living compounds.
  • Employees are forbidden access to the Internet and email, and are prevented from accessing the Internet.
  • All sex between workers (including those married to each other) is discouraged, and female workers who become pregnant undergo extreme pressure and duress to get them to abort the pregnancy — including denying them access to their husbands to discuss the matter.
  • Employees who “run” are sought out and returned with physical force and psychological coercion. Other employees practice procedures to hunt down people who “run”. Employees deemed “flight risks” due to something they have said to another, are kept under surveillance and guarded and restrained by security personnel.
  • The employer maintains another compound, somewhere else, where employees work and live on the premises, without busing. This compound is fenced with security fencing (including razor-sharp inward-facing spikes, vibration detectors, flood lights, cameras, and electronic notification systems), security personnel at all gates (with guns), and it’s rare that any employees are allowed out. Some of the employees haven’t been out of that compound in years.
  • The employer maintains a punishment work detail for those whom it deems troublemakers. This work detail is not allowed to speak with anyone, works a minimum of 10 hours of hard manual labor a day, gets substandard nutrition provided for meals, and gets a maximum of 7 hours of sleep per night. The employer also maintains an extra-punishment work detail for those who do not cooperate with the regular punishment work detail. Those poor souls work continuously, and get a maximum of 6 hours of sleep per night.
  • Employees wear fancy pseudo-Naval uniforms for photo-ops and special events, and follow a pretend-Naval hierarchy of "rank."
  • Employer employs several thousand personnel throughout the USA.
All these things are true of the Scientology cult's "Sea Organization" (Sea Org)!


Streams Of Words

flow  through us
warriors and cowards in there
heroes and villains
kings and slaves
everyone got 'em
lurking their past

whores and priests running madly convinced through our minds
living on the prayers of gods and groins
hell and brimstone preachers
and cool hipsters who just walk by it all
like nothing mattered and what the fuck if it did?

some will speak to our warriors
others the cowards
we decide
whether we will allow ourselves
 to travel on the stream of their words
or insert our own

walk up that fucking stream defying the currents created before we had a say
the only way to avoid waterfalls and rapids
built into every river
the pits where our beliefs shine no light
the prisons
when we are kneel chained and beaten
suffering the endless imprisonment in the flesh like stoic cons
living for an extra biscuit from our jailers

As I walked the husky through the swirling Chicago snow
a day before News Years Eve
I could see the streams of words flowing through the air
radio waves and wireless internet and phones
philosophies and quips and racist rants
republican and democrat all rambling around in my mind

They tell me they will baptise me in their streams
take me up the mythic mississipi journey of huck finn
to enlightenment
meditate my way into a whole 'nother dream of this life
save me some money with their sales
find our my credit rating

most of the streams
end up being
a tangled landscape of meaninglessly babbling, thoughtless brooks

the poet stretches the metaphor like a rubber band that is going to hurt like hell when it breaks
pulls his body through the rush of water
fighting the draw of just laying on his back basking in the sun
floating along wherever dreaming all is right with the universe
listening intently to cable tv commentators who stitch together stories
under banners that draw the worst out of us
ask for the hateful voices
the xenophobic monkey trying to live like a goddamn human being

oh what child would I tell you to do as you totterr out into the universal confusion
with this band of mental toddlers who have no idea how to cure the worlds problems...
nothing that will work without changes that will have to be fought for
harder than they are fought against

word for word
blood for blood
fire for fire
man who has always in the end befriended his enemies
sooner or later
historically speaking
for a few hundred years here and there

We know the path
We just don't know always who blocks us
who is beckoning us for their own purposes
who is just some Joe who knows the way and tells it like he lived it?

You got them in there
Jung's archtype/the marvel universe/Star Wars
the characters we will play by our own device and others

How you gonna live boy?
Will you be blindered young?
Taught to keep your nose to the grindstone
life focused?

i worry about the young girls chasing beauty even as I marvel at their ways
as stunned as an adolescent boy
and aware as a man that history bred younger than we do here
that the rise of tv and fashion warps
insert pornography in our every moment

i hear a young comic talking about how he doesn't want to scream issues at people
just wants to make them laugh
wonder how he missed any connection
to the frantic part of me that worries incessently about my planet
how he deluded himself into an island?
wealth does that/part of the appeal is the purchase of privacy
the distance of exclusivity
from the ever present mucky-muck
the stone cold downers everywhere
that seem to suck the juice out of life
leave only a vague endlessness
the wondering if any of this is really worth the arrows at all?

we can't take the humane society ads showing abondened animals in this house
have to change the channel
we do all we can already and don't want to go there if we don't have to
want to surf out our own way
find our own paradise for awhile
beat off or buy something or run off into a bottle/snort up a night
be mentally elsewhere

say what you will
I'll listen when I can
I tell the world
unless you are just plain full of shit
your agenda transparent
to my prying eye

I toss another pebble in the stream
watch the ripples disrupt the flow of the current for a few seconds and disappear


With the recently aborted Christmas day bombing...  The Ball Burner...  I have no choice.

  Every man in the world collectively winched when we heard about the bomb being in the front of his underwear.  Generations of young men and women will most likely be saved from the brain washing of radical Islamics simply by the idea that they may, at some point, be asked to attach a bomb to their genitals.  Can you imagine the day they told him about where the bomb would be?  There are strong, biological imperatives that drive men to refuse to do ANYTHING that might harm their nuts, let alone their penises.

Regardless of how I feel about this matter, I know that there is the thought that if you are going to be blown to bits, what does it matter where the bomb is?  Others will buy this argument...  though I swear, myself, to the Powers That Be, that while I may at some point turn to terroristic tactics if a fascist regime started deciding to set up death camps for the latest, greatest demonized demographic, I swear that I will not join, or found, any guerrilla units for anyone who uses genitalia related bombing techniques.   Again, Regardless....  I cannot stop others from hiding explosives in their nethers.  I mean, let's face it, now that the Terrorists have reached the strapping bombs to penises stage, the asshole cannot be far behind.

The Asshole Bomber will scream the headlines across the country.... well, that is not going to happen here at the Elves Attic... NOT UNDER MY WATCH.  From now on, all people who come into my apartment are going to have to have their assholes checked.  Basically, I hired this guy who lives downstairs to shove his arm, up to the elbow, into the rectum of all visitors to my apartment, to check for explosives ....  weird guy...  guess I should admit that he is actually paying me for the right to do what he refers to as 'fisting' all my visitors (some kind of slang these terrorism experts use, obviously...).   Yes, I know this is going to be controversial when M's mother comes over on New Years Day, but we have no way of knowing if she is a sleeper agent or not?  M. is launching her usual protests about my security measures (yes, people have died because of the booby traps that I set up on the doors, but they were mostly Jehovah Witnesses and Mormon missionaries..  though I do regret that the US Mail will no longer service us, and surely there is no arguing that the postal carrier is better off without his hands, as I tried to do in court, because people will simply not listen to logic).  This time I will not bend, however.  The pets and M. are ultimately my responsibility, as the military intelligence expert here (M. does note even like war movies, for God's sake, so how would she even know what to do?).

In these highly dangerous times, everyone has to make certain sacrifices to insure our safety.  Having your bum 'fisted' is just one of them.  I hopefully will be able to relax these security measures in the future, perhaps even the day after M's mom tries to get in the apartment to spend the day whining about growing old (was this some surprise to her, that she was going to grow old? Come on... but M just caters to her...  I swear if I could smack her around a little, she would work her way past this, gain some 'closure,' as the idiots say).  Some may even refuse to subject themselves to this security.  Like her mom, perhaps... though this is not my reason for doing this, no matter how much M. acts like I am either 1)  'joking,' or 2) 'just fucking nuts,'  or 3) 'trying to get her mom to turn around and go home.'

I know that she will thank me in the end.  I mean, we have gone eight years without a terrorist attack on the apartment, and M acts like this was by accident!!!!!   Without my efforts, I can assure you, we would be confetti on some dudes parade into heaven to claim his damn virgins.



This poem ends up qualifying more for Waking Up Jesus than this poem, incorporates the myths of that tale...  ignore them for secular consumptions, please...  

winters  heavy slumber
the solemn silence of snow
christmas lights strung with the dim hopes
of a credit card Santa

science has proven that looking at bright lights can lift our moods
the research that got me started painting
selfishly enough
to sooth some wound

tattered traveler between times and places
a visitor to others stories
tells his own alone in mystery
free for all to see

i think again and again of the death of the revolutionaries
the protester's jailed and beaten
all over the planet
for all kinds of reasons
in the war against the progressive


we will have less and less as the population blossoms
learn to live with it
less garbage and packaging and pompous sales packages
stream line what you need
hoard only words

the changes we see make the future understandable at least
tactical problems that can be approached without controversy
the war for justice will not be raged by armies
the war will be fought between those who make great wealth
exploiting the environment
and the rest of us
for 20 years we have ignored the scientists
I mean, what the hell.... no one died in a nuclear war
the clicking clock they move ominously toward midnight every year
saying the scientists believed we were this close to that big war
end of life
and doesn't every generation think the world is going to end?
all the ad hoc arguments that grow with our beer bellies

we barely take into account the nukes anymore
they are still nightmares out there
suicide bombers will get them if we don't play world cops
nuclear phallic symbols rising into the sky all over the world

left over bombs
from our years of fears
our propoganda spewed hatred
our idealogical wars
fought with very real blood
greed and bigots and dreamers and writers

we have the big bombs and can't use them to win a war
afganistan, iraq, pakistan, iran and whoever the hell else we are fighting here and there
can't use em

wouldn't do no good
just turn the entire world into our enemy
give Israel an excuse to pop off a couple nukes of their own
blow up a few Arabs and grab the god bestowed land --ho, ho, ho says their Santa...

the theory of nothing
rattles around the sleepless night
awake with a glowing christmas tree
hazlenut coffee
a sleeping Husky
a nice scene
M. laying on the couch snoring a little now and then

cnn discussing the greenhouse effect
hearing about the rising anger of the poorer countries
that are going to suffer for our largesse

hard to argue with the idea that america russia china and canada
have set into motion a geographical catastrophe
that we will pay for
when the storms and floods come
we will send in our soldiers and relief
do what we can
send out our prayers
tell ourselves our healing energies will help the starving

the actual fact that the people who are responsible
for pushing oil on people
are going to make us pay for their sins'
with our entire planet
chokes me with the old fucking injustice....
the vile face of the demonic
when the CIA got in bed with Exxon the gates of hell opened a bit
I can  feel the heat

we are not going to get a solution
 out of the ruling powers
 in any of the large countires
the movement could use interlocking green political parties that agree to press certain issues
a movement that creates Justice
to fight the packs of corporate lawyers who fight it tooth and nail
reactionaries to the reactionaries

we were lured out of the jungle
into the fields
to hunt
where there were no trees
no where to climb
away from the charging jaguars
who would bat our spears and clubs aside
show us just who was the top predator on the plane
we forgot us much in our cities
see the big cats only in zoos
slaves to our curiousity
we won the war

the face of the world
is pathetic
no money to attend no protestors
give to a cause
can't risk the job asking for a union

I can't see through the snow storm outside
seems the entire world is gone
the tv just a cheap lie about some other place that I do not inhabit
with news I don't  need to know
opinions that offend me
I can't listen to the right wing pundits
actors pretending they have ethical positions
instead of just propaganda agendas
gotta please that right wing boss at fox
by slamming those liberals
gotta shape the usa mind
gotta pretend
they have the proper spin
they offer a mythic 'other' for the real news i suppose
people prefer as much
like the Limbaugh people who are just happy to have
someone to think for them
to give them a way to live
that frees them to hate
be selfish
to take their orders from republican politicians
reading those talking points like they were the news

the prophets are cloaked
by their mundane appearance
the terrific loneliness of thinking out alone
where no one else has quite been before
speculating on every religion
in my mad run for glory
for forgiveness
for a way of living that was better than the one I had

when my spaceship crashed
I was surprised just to be alive
my memories muddled
when I split my head open
on the side of a mountain
i try to remember who I was out there?
the images offer me no narrative
... just the same old chaos
all I seem to be able to make sense of is a future self
far from now
who will still wonder
who were we these humans
that tore so boldly across this planet
these warrior poets
who prided themselves on being a bit more than they really were?
Did they remember to live hard enough to make this journey worth it?
Have enough fun to suffer the scars?
Keep their youth until the end of our years
a secret between ourselves and a few friends?

grace the revered Jackson says
Grace Before Thanks
I don't get Christmas Cards from people who I got out of prison

in a world loaded for fucking bear
an inner strength that says you can take anything
have to
that's your job
to live
just to live

that fire of faith burns in every christmas light we pass on the highway
spews through bad seasonal movies
tonight was Santa Verses The Martians
watching the low to no budget movie is
my response to the chaos on tv
the health care debacles
our poor president doing his damnedest
to do more than any other president ever has

problem comes when we find out we can no longer rely
on consumer spending to run the engine of this economy
more people/less resources/
simple bad old math of the population explosion
we hear less and less about this since AIDS came around
changes that dire prediction
the mystery disease that solved what was then thought to be the coming end of life'
as  we know it... a soyent green world
a disease that killed junkies and gays
sexual radicals and huge swaths of the African population

hear a lot of rumbles about the disease being created
hard to believe
like 9-11
the false flag mission that started the war with the middle east
on a day that all the military pilots were on a massive training mission
no one shot down the terrorist planes
there was explosives involved in bringing down the towers

they did it.
got their war.
hard core folk.
they thought nothing of torture, extraordinary rendition, horror prisons
They plan on burying their sins in hidden in the spies files
they'll admit as much in a hundred years
preserve the republic and all that

the lesson still has to be learned
so the children know how governments gear up populations to want a war
how they lie to get their way
how they cannot be trusted
how the media will go along with them for the most part

we will get beyond war
it will end
we have abandoned too many people in the past
the Afgani's once already
Iraq, too

Both places we've been playing war games with
we loved Saddam for awhile there
boy they killed him fast
I wish he could have lived on to write his story
what tales such a man could tell
he might have become a pillar for peace
or he might have been a lightening rod for revolution?

I want to forgive everyone and pray for as much at night
In the mornings sometimes as i wake up
my pleas as frantic as those for my own forgiveness

my sins are vague
at the moment
unrelated to my day to day
fought by simple crusades of trying just not to hate anyone
even the Taliban
then they do something that makes me feel the same old fires

I do not want to sentence women to live in such near slavery
they should fight for their rights
no religion that matters would keep women out of school
true Muslims know as much
there are too many paths up the mountain
people take the ones that are easiest to follow
they fear going off on their own'\
out into the forests
where they might just run into a mystical beast
playing a beat
their own

polemics of comedy and strife and poetry
the blogging of a life

the exacting of an audience
without having to live by the publishers
the market's chant of
'write a spy book, romance, something about vampires....
sell sell sell what the hell'

don dellilo's writer wrote porn for children to read about each other
had the market covered for awhile
now we have the twilight series

there is enough room in the universe for all the words we will ever tell
I suppose
if they are worth something to someone ....
even if it is just igniting a few crotch fires in fourteen year old girls

I fear they will burn up
die out with us
we'll send something out into space about ourselves
maybe even a few fragile survivors
aliens could show up and help us out

mystic me
I think that the body
is a very boring way to travel
who needs it?
Give me a spirit to fly around space with,
because it is quite large....

buddha I will have to come back I suppose
unless the dreams of fire and lightening call me to act in the name of God
create an apocalypse on the shores of Lake Michigan
the final burning off of the chaf
an ark of souls
embarking for the face of God
prodigal children returning from the big bang

act dammit man act
rage into their lying faces
sue the news for lying to you
for false advertising about fairness....

in the paranoid world of the right wing
they see my drifts toward socialism
as the beginning of lining up the greenhouse deniers and getting rid of their gene pools first

more taxes they advertise as they talk about defeating health care
oh, don't make us pay more taxes they say.
Everyone wants universal healthcare except the healthcare companies who will be reigned in for once
The reality of politics

i wrote the other day that Obama is Cheney in black face.
I didn't really mean it... just thought it was kind of funny
he inherited a war and an economy that is fighting his every reform
I still wear my elect Obama hat
though with my long hair flying everywhere
 I can tell some look at me as slightly mad
long hair does that to some people
oh well
no false advertising there

more than you can ever appear
oh man
take comfort
where you can



The very unions that created the middle class, are being ignored in the favor of financiers who are getting a 140 billion in bonuses.    If I was truly a conspiracy theorist, I would wonder if the elitists created a crises for which they have no worries about actually having to pay for, to destroy their enemies in organized labor.. 

Today it's the teachers, firemen and cops who are paying for the housing bubble... instead of the folk who created it.  These are the people who could save this planet, but instead...  oh, well.  

I see the Immigration rights workers, black activists, liberals, unions,  and people of all stripes who believe in preserving the idea of a Democracy, as the natural recruiting grounds for a peaceful movement that can be utilized to force worldwide reactions in places like Copenhagen.   Political parties do this by staying on message.  In formation information. 

What happens in the streets though, can be easily undone in the back-rooms.   How do we get into the back rooms?  In some countries they just shoot their way in.  That is not going to work in a country like ours, thank god, because I do not want to live in the midst of a civil war. .. for one, and the other is that if it is that easy to take over our government, than some other asshole is going to do the same....  As intolerable as this country can seem at times, there is a fluidity to the laws that we live by which offers actual hope for change.  The only real hope in my opinion is in convincing enough people that they have a right to a say in how their world is ran.  It happens sometimes.  Right now, the idea of FINANCIAL REFORM is just too boring for most people to think about, or too infuriating, or beside the point with the wars and unemployment and prisons...  yet I read how Goldman and Sachs has stacked the cards in their favor, and no one is doing anything about it?

The money that we are using to prop up the banks may be what saves the system, for all I know...  still, justice is justice, and they should be paying up for their capitalist ideas by being able to fail.  Barring that, we have to put into place regulations that stop speculators from unrealistically building housing bubbles... as well as the speed trading that is just basically playing the stock market like a broken slot machine that just pays and pays.... you, while sucking up that change out of everyone's pockets around you.  

Sad that there has to be a connection between the greed on wall street and the need for better schools, college tuition, and the vast teeming masses of unemployed people.   This whole thing happened before with the collapse of the savings and loans, and is set to happen again....Goldman Sachs profits off of such bubbles, so they have no incentive to stop them, indeed... they have every reason to encourage them.   These are men with such vast wealth that they need not work another day in their lives, so that old fear of going under is not going to stop them from making short term profits that eventually fuck their companies.

I feel so out of my element on some of the things I write about.   End up trusting my gut more than I should.

  Does it always come down  to who can afford the best lobbyists?   If that is so, than liberal consortium's should hire their own guns.  I mean, it is not like lobbying for your rights has to be a dishonorable profession, obviously.   


statistical proofing

only 51% 
OF PEOPLE IN THE LAND OF THE FREE (to be deluded and lied to) USA 

This is down from 71% in 2007....
RIGHT into our graves

did a subsonic order go out
the alarm clock for some deep seated hypnotic suggestion
drilled in
by subliminal messages
inserted into tv shows
telling us all to cram crayons up our nose
for a makeshift lobotomy?

Did the message of Apocalypse sink so deep into our collective mind
that the POLLUTING of the earth seems  the will of the Gods?

Is there a cabal that believes they are playing their parts in a prophesy
by pushing the earth toward the fiery end?

Is the damage so great
that we have to deny the fate of the Polar Bears and Penguins
 and the thousands of species already gone baby gone
to get on with the day to day drudgery
to chain the creature that wants to destroy all man has wrought?

Do Exxon and the Neo-Con Insurgency
lobby for Revelations with the religious right
buy up all the prosperity ministers

to spread their message to the KNOWN GULLIBLE?
only the oil companies and big polluters want you to believe
everything is fine
to act otherwise would be bad business...
and after all to them it is 'just business,' as they say
'nothing personal' as they say

to put out a few ad's pretending they have no responsibility for their sins
is 'good' business
the hockie scenes are enough to get a few believers
who are propped up by their perfectly legal purchase of  politicians
the strip miners and oil barons have  a market that forgives them
with the patience of  a Saint
name anything they can get away with
or buy their way out of
--so far that means anything from murder on down...

has our xenophobia just gone wild
as the internet and tv force us to confront all the cultures of the globe?
has our hatred for other races and religions and sexes
grown into a prevailing urge
rationalized in all languages and with every religion
to take out our enemies and kill ourselves afterwards?

could be the plain old too banal
to even write about in the times
ability of Big Money to subtly manipulate our beliefs
by dangling the sparkling and coveted beads in our face
20 minutes for every 40 of tv?

start out as children
 reaching for toys in tv screens
and end up dressed exactly as the people in our favorite shows
are  told
he best of us
are never satisfied
asked on our job applications if we get a gold star for being Money Motivated?

the republicans keep 71% of their constituents
 duped on this GREENHOUSE
have to...
 no one is so cheap that they wouldn't pay taxes to save the planet
I always think if they only got people who they represent
to vote for them
the .oo1 percent that they take their orders from
they would all be thrown off office

leave it to the conservatives to make a bi-partisan issue out of survival
could anything make their agenda more obvious
that they fight for a powerful minority
whose interests contradict 99% of the planet's population
they are actually fighting against the health of the planet
their true agendas are achingly obvious to anyone
who is not attending their pep rallies
who hasn't been brainwashed and beaten down into the Fraternity.
or bought

mystical spells are woven to hide the truth
as they march us into the death camp

scientific denial will get you no where but dead...
that at least has been proven to all

we would not all come out and deny medical doctors claims
about pancreatic cancer
but every boof on the street
 has an opinion on the Greenhouse
which if you read up on it you kind of realize that anyone who is against it hasn't
or they've been lied to
or outright bought by vested interests
who have playing that pr game for generations
out of sight
behind closed doors
in private rooms where they grow their own politicians

con men always sway the masses with religious cadences
and charts that hide the lurking ponzi's

the politicians and pundits
play a symphony of what is best in us
our charity and bravery and sense of justice
reduce our free will to Pavlovian responses
triggered by symbols
 buried in speeches and car ad's
use us as notes for a concert
played for the ears of their Dark Lords alone

our passions expended on the ethereal ethics of the moment
pulling that handle in the voting booth and squirting our load all over that machine
we head home tired
look around at all we have
wonder how the house is going to take the coming floods
what the waters will sweep away?


my new guitar....  purple viper....  looks much sweeter than this, hand polished to a great shine, and the black is very, very deep... as is the purple.

essential mental rhetoric

Right makes might
Might makes right

the equation we wander around within
with no fucking idea how to math our way out

power bases have to get that might somewhere
they take bits of each of us
build gated communities out of our flesh

tremble tremble tan polished man
your substance is composed by designer labels
and we are shutting those sweat shops down
taking the diamond tierra's off your princesses
tossing them into the vat of blood
where they belong

huff on by in an Ayn Rand Rage of righteous indignation

I take slim comfort in the thought that People all look the same
after the guilty verdict

it will come too late
too late
too late

i don't blame dogs for being dogs
or humans for being humans
Your children's children 
will lack the grace of my denial
as they wage daily wars to merely survive
the shifts of population
the rationing of breathable air
the unfairness of living in slums within sight  of the Billionaires barricaded oasis's 

the more money they have 
the more might they can  buy
private armies of lawyers and lobbyists
politicians, cops and spies
criminals and front organizations and newspapers, tv stations ...
sad ass economics
the naked math
charting our demise

we need to use less
and go down fighting for a few extra bucks to buy more



And makes my arguments.  Take that Tommy Smothers, you ball sweat lapping flea.  The title of the article was something like Making War To Get Peace.  He was writing about the Congo, and the shamelessly racist nature of The United States priorities when it comes to sending in soldiers.  War is not always wrong, obviously...  however, since we inherited an Imperialistic system that then began to be propped up by  the corporate ruling class, most of our choices have been all about the almighty dollar -- the CIA has it written into their mandate that they are supposed to protect USA business interests.  Did you know that?   Yes, creating a small army for Exxon to gun down the people protesting the oil sludge they throw anywhere they fucking want in lawless countries (check how someone behaves when they think no one is looking to find out who they really are...  not that I am encouraging stalking, though normally I do).  People alone can end up with very, very strange stories they tell er doctors about how the light bulb ended up in their but.  One guy I know choked himself to death with his ex-wives panties and pictures of her all over the bed.  Erotic Asphyxiation  

The neo-cons recently booted from the White House acted like laws no longer applied to them, and look how crazy the domestic spying has gotten --20k american citizens added WEEKLY and millions of us being monitored--the sheer waste of money is mind--boggling...  can you imagine a business that was doing security for america wasting their resources on every college kid who goes to a protest, everyone who goes to Indymedia's websites (they recently tried to get them to turn over everyone who has been to the site, and they refused...  and we are talking 100k plus people -- which they probably would have added in a week...  they really do have a goal of having files on everyone who matters).  Mostly I am referring to the Iraq war.  They lied and conned and had the idea 10 or more years before they finally got a shot at the middle east.  We were already in Afghanistan kicking ass, why pass up the chance, they figured?  Why?  Perhaps because no one else in the country wanted to invade.   So they invented a nuclear threat  (something I learned from them, by the  way, for those who remember my own nuclear related poetry and the resulting mess of confusion that drove Hillary Clinton into thinking the revolutionaries rising around the country during the most active, so far, period of my campaign were from Syria.  Ho....  ).  We abandoned the conflict in Afghanistan, basically... to chase after someone, mostly, because they had tried to kill the present presidents' dad.  I heard him say this once, and about vomited...  he kept saying, The Guy Tried To Kill My Dad....  like that is reason enough to kill hundreds of thousands....  The privileged rich sure do think different.

Now, I am trying to understand the present troop surge in Afghanistan.  I really want to support Obama, to believe that he is the one who has been in intensive meetings for three months, and I have to trust that he knows more about what is going on than I do.   No one in the press seems to ever want to just say, "Well, perhaps if we knew what they do, we would feel the same way."    Let's face it, he is more aware of what is going on in the world than most people... way more than some.   And since he does not seem to really have an ideology like Trickle Down Economics or some other Voodoo Economics to drive his decisions, I would hope he would decide like I would.

IT is hard to trust someone else.   Especially politicians.  We are simply not used to it.  Everyone on the left is disappointed with Obama, but this has always been his stated position -- We need more fight in Afghanistan, and less in Iraq.  He has always supported this war.  He is doing what he thinks has to be done to protect national security.  Ossama Bin Laden recently came out and said what it would take for them to stop their war on the states, and one was that we stop supporting Israel.  Well, 40 percent of the billionaires in this country are jewish, and if you think we are going to stop supporting them, you do not understand how this country works at all.  Money not only talks, it has puppet strings leading right to your very own legs...   This means that they are at war with us whether we are there or not.

If we left and the terrorists used the country as a launching ground for a huge terrorist attack, Obama would suffer for his decision, and so would the states....  a Republican would almost certainly get in and be given a rubber stamp to kill whoever/wherever/// snatch anybody... open back up those private prisons and torture with impunity.   Yes, you can't win sometimes.  Weighing future pain against present pain is difficult for people.   Most people can't save because they do not want to scrimp, let alone eat right, etc...  if we can put off pain, like the cancer from smoking, we will do it.  That is obviously not optimum, and would be a very shitty trait in a president.

I was saddened by the faces of the soldiers in the audience for his speech.  All they were hearing was that they were going to war.  You could tell they didn't want to... who would?  Anyways...  I guess since I have always hated the Taliban, I should be more pleased than I am with this decision... after all, the Marines asked for this years ago, and on the radio show we talked about it a lot, how the Taliban was regrouping while bush went after the guy who tried to kill his dad.

I can't help but feel like shit that he went with a war, but he did what he feels he has to... I voted for him firmly believing that he was more qualified to be president than I am...  that he would make decisions that I believe are right.   So...  I guess here is to hoping he knows what he is doing.  The speech was convincing to me, and  I like that he wasn't cocky and thank god he did not talk about Winning a War... there are no winners.  He knows that.

one of my very sorry little attempts to show my oil paintings, pets, girl...

a new mural in rodgers park... and picking up poo and sniffing pee

m and i take a trip down to the bean sculpture... here in Chicago...

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Ruby dog fights the mighty dash... click on video to watch at utube

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