He asks how I am doing. Sunlight flows through his glasses, revealing that they are filthy... covered in smudges and what look like huge specks of dust... I tell him I'm fine and ask the same.
"I'm out here trying to stop a bunch of killing."
Intrigued, I ignore the dog who has sensed something is wrong with this guy and is pulling hard on her leash, trying to get me to shoot right on past the guy she usually greets like a long lost friend with doggie treats. "What do you mean?" A voice in my thoughts begin begging the Gods that b that my buddy is not going to tell me that he is in the mood to murder... forcing me to get way more involved in his delusion than I want to be.
"This Polish dude, the ladlord. His miner light is his gun."
"His miner light is his gun?"
"You get it." He says this like I am part of his delusion, that I have long accepted that this Pollack was running around plotting murder.
"Yes."
"He kills white people, too. Don't be feeling all smug. He wants to kill everything american. Hispanics, blacks.. everyone who ain't Polish."
A car goes by and he starts monitoring their activities. "Gotta watch em' going by... oh, they're turning left." He spins in a circle watching them, then keeps spinning as a woman goes by, so he can watch her as she passes and make sure she is safe.... I think. "Gotta keep spinning now. Gotta keep up the circle." He spins slowly around and around looking everywhere.
"I should get the cat food."
"Be careful, now."
"You too man."
What can I do? Should I ask if he has a social worker he can call? Is this just how he passes his bad days, muttering about the landlord wanting to kill people? I suppose as long as he thinks he is protecting, rather than actually contemplating killing anyone, that this society drugs him, gets him an apartment, gives him a few bucks a month, tries to get him into school if he is healthy enough. They tried with this guy. He always has an apartment, and obviously has some good days... usually he seems normal, mind you, and we discuss computers and tv's and shit.I
We do live in an asylum.
"I'm out here trying to stop a bunch of killing."
Intrigued, I ignore the dog who has sensed something is wrong with this guy and is pulling hard on her leash, trying to get me to shoot right on past the guy she usually greets like a long lost friend with doggie treats. "What do you mean?" A voice in my thoughts begin begging the Gods that b that my buddy is not going to tell me that he is in the mood to murder... forcing me to get way more involved in his delusion than I want to be.
"This Polish dude, the ladlord. His miner light is his gun."
"His miner light is his gun?"
"You get it." He says this like I am part of his delusion, that I have long accepted that this Pollack was running around plotting murder.
"Yes."
"He kills white people, too. Don't be feeling all smug. He wants to kill everything american. Hispanics, blacks.. everyone who ain't Polish."
A car goes by and he starts monitoring their activities. "Gotta watch em' going by... oh, they're turning left." He spins in a circle watching them, then keeps spinning as a woman goes by, so he can watch her as she passes and make sure she is safe.... I think. "Gotta keep spinning now. Gotta keep up the circle." He spins slowly around and around looking everywhere.
"I should get the cat food."
"Be careful, now."
"You too man."
What can I do? Should I ask if he has a social worker he can call? Is this just how he passes his bad days, muttering about the landlord wanting to kill people? I suppose as long as he thinks he is protecting, rather than actually contemplating killing anyone, that this society drugs him, gets him an apartment, gives him a few bucks a month, tries to get him into school if he is healthy enough. They tried with this guy. He always has an apartment, and obviously has some good days... usually he seems normal, mind you, and we discuss computers and tv's and shit.I
We do live in an asylum.
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